Last night, I dreamed that you died and that I had been texting and talking to your ghost for weeks; the weeks that you have been away. When I realized you were dead I was so heartbroken because we had no future together if you were gone. I cried because, just like, Ally who passed away several years ago, I could only talk to you in my dreams. As the gravity of my loneliness hit me, I woke up.
I was panicked for several minutes- crying and panting. I repeated “it’s just a dream” about 100 times until I calmed down. Wednesday is my 1 year anniversary with you. We have known each other for nearly a decade and have been through so much together. Dreaming of losing you made me realize just how much you mean to me.