Writing Challenge: Sept 2, 2018
Prompt: What is your greatest fear?
I fear loneliness-
but I fear dependency more.
Each fear feeds the other.
I fear becoming too attached on someone who will leave.
I fear relying on those who will find me a burden.
I even fear that my fear causes me to push others away.
I swallow my emotions, my needs, and desires-
to please those I don’t wish to lose.
Still, despite my precautions the fear always lingers:
“don’t be a burden, don’t get too close, don’t let anyone in-
They will grow tired, they will give up, they will betray.”
I love deeply, but my trust is shallow-
asking for little so I have nothing to owe.
Fearing loneliness, but fearing dependency more-
My independence is my fatal flaw