It’s November, which means that all of us American bloggers are clogging your feed with all of the things we are thankful for. I am self-aware as to how cliche, and thus how disingenuous this post will be, but as Thanksgiving is my favorite Holiday I am still making this post anyway.
If you have been following me for any amount of time you know that I have several mental health issues including chronic depression, generalized anxiety disorder, cPTSD, and Seasonal Depressive Disorder. Basically, my brain doesn’t do “happy” very well. You would also know that this time last year I was in a really bad place. I lost a friend, was living with my grandparents and sleeping on the couch because my room had flooded. I had to take a leave of absence from I job I didn’t like due to physical and mental health reasons, and I was in intensive therapy. This year, everything is different’ I’ve pulled through that time with the help of some truly great people. For my obligatory November Thankfulness post, I’d like to show my gratitude.
- Family: I am lucky to have a family that supports me.
My family is far from perfect or ideal. We mess up, we fight, and we are often blunt, unsympathetic, and uncommunicative. Still, at the end of the day we love and support each other in a way that I know many families don’t. No matter how bad things are, I know my family will reach out to help me out to get back on my feet again, because they already have.
2. Friends: I have amazing friends.
I am one of the few lucky people who can claim to still be close to friends from highschool, as well as former co-workers. Most people drift apart after they move to new places or jobs, and that’s natural. Last year I had to make the tough choice to cut some toxic people out of my life and I”m glad I did. Now I can appreciate the network of truly amazing friends I have. No matter how busy they are, I know we can make time for each other, and I know that I can tell them anything and they will still love me. In return I try to do the same for them, even if I end up feeling like I take more than I can give.
3. Pets: I love my cat:
This isn’t a joke, I am truly grateful for my cat Aspasia. I adopted a little black cat last fall, and she has helped so much with my anxiety and depression. She is sweet, friendly, a little needy, but very loving. Taking care of her, and coming home to her every night makes me so happy. She runs to great me at the door every evening, and she sleeps by my legs every night. She keeps me company and gives me something to take care of. I can’t imagine living without her now that I have her in my life.
4. Work: I have a great job:
I know complaining about work and “hustle culture” is a big thing, but I genuinely love my job. I work for an amazing company that prioritizes having a work/life balance and creating a fantastic work environment. When I needed to transfer from night shift to days, they were very accommodating and helped me get through the process as quickly and painlessly as possible. I am paid enough to pay my bills, I have flexible hours, a great team in a nerd-culture office (the millennial dream), and once I leave the office I get to leave work at work. I’ve worked here for 9 months now, and I still enjoy coming to work. How many people can say that?
5. Home: My apartment rocks:
Okay, I admit this is a little braggy but considering how much of our budget goes to housing and how much time we spend there it is important to feel at home in your house. I am lucky enough to feel that way. When I was searching for a place finding an apartment that allowed pets was a must (because Aspasia), but I also needed to be in budget. I still cannot believe how incredibly lucky I was to find a big, beautiful apartment just a mile from work, a block away from my Alma Marter (which I was attending at the time), and a place that has truly awesome landlords who live right up-stairs. I’m not usually known for having good luck, but in this case I really scored.
This is not a complete list of all the things I’m grateful for, but it is my “top 5” as it were. Generally after Thanksgiving and Christmas my Seasonal Depression starts to take hold, but this year I hope that the combination of things will help me pull through. Just last night I was lying in bed and thinking about how much has changed over the last year. I thought about the great people around me, and how much support they gave me when I changed jobs, moved to my own place, graduated from school and basically overhauled my life. I worked hard to build a life I can be happy and proud of. All I can say, is that I have so much to be thankful for this Thanksgiving, and I truly hope all of you can feel that way too.