S.A.D: realities of depressive disorders

Christmas has come and gone in an almost uneventful way. The tree was lite, the presents wrapped, and stockings hung- but the joy just wasn't there. The dull browns, the dark days, the cold weather- something about it saps all my energy. It brings out all the sadness, the despair, and hopelessness. It's as if … Continue reading S.A.D: realities of depressive disorders

Pre-Depression

Maybe it's just me, or maybe it's a common symptom to many of us who suffer from depression, but I have noticed a phenomena I call "pre-depression". What is it? The best way I can describe it is as an aura to depression, like the auras that often serve as a precursors for migraines. It's … Continue reading Pre-Depression

Documenting My Nervous Breakdown

I'm not sure who this will help other than myself, but I have decided to document my nervous breakdown. From diagnosis to recovery. Every dark, fragmented thought, every episode, and every moment of clarity- I'm going to share. THIS WILL BE TRIGGERING. THIS WILL BE TOUGH, THIS WILL BE OFFENSIVE. These are my experiences, as they … Continue reading Documenting My Nervous Breakdown

I Couldn’t Save You

Writing Challenge: August 10, 2018 Prompt: I couldn't save you.   I couldn’t save you When you began to drink more and sleep less. Your eyes would glaze over- unfocused. Filled with water- but no emotion. You would lay on the mattress on the floor for hours- neither sleeping nor awake. You were calling out … Continue reading I Couldn’t Save You

If I Don’t Come Home In Time

I pull into the drive after a long day at work. I am tired and hungry. It is dark and silent. I turn the key in the ignition. I shut off the lights- But I don’t leave the car.   I place both hands on the top of the wheel And rest my head upon … Continue reading If I Don’t Come Home In Time