I become obsessed with perfection when my anxiety spikes. Filling every moment of my time with self-improvement tasks, as if I could compensate for my own shameful humanity through diligence. It's a performance, with myself as the only audience. A dance of of wild precision - a single misstep will bring me crashing down. It's … Continue reading Anxious Perfection
By now everyone knows that I have anxiety. While I talk a lot about how it impacts my personal life, I haven't discussed how it can bleed into my work life as well. Until recently, I've not had much of an issue. I work from home, as part of a small team, that doing straight … Continue reading Working With Anxiety: Imposter Syndrome
I finally had the anxiety attack I had been expecting. With a global pandemic, an economic crisis, and a flood in my apartment, I am surprised I didn't have a breakdown sooner. Those of you who follow my blog know that I have generalized anxiety disorder, which can (an has) triggered my depression, cPTSD, and … Continue reading Progress Isn’t Linear
The last few weeks I've been restless and unsettled. On the whole, things are looking good. I'm doing well in my final semester of school. I've started dating with some regularity, and I've even started a new job that pays much better than my last one. Despite all of that, or maybe because of it, … Continue reading Restless: Life with high functioning anxiety
Bringing Mae Flowers 