When I hear certain songs I think of him. We all have songs like that. Something about the way the lyrics squeezes your chest hurts in a good way. The memories of good times and bad rush together. Sometimes the scenes play like a fast forward movie, and other times there is only an overwhelming … Continue reading Relationship Deja vu: reliving your previous relationship over and over again
Changing Your Dream: who says you have to choose one path?
When I was 7 I wanted to be a pop-star. I wanted to wanted to write songs with choreographed dance routines. I wanted to wear cool outfits, tour the world, be be rich and famous. When I was 12 I thought I would graduate college by 21, start teaching at 22, be married with a … Continue reading Changing Your Dream: who says you have to choose one path?
Timing Inspiration: When Motivation Strikes at the Wrong Moment
I've been lecturing myself all month about my lack of motivation for writing. Since graduation I've had all the time in the world to work on my prose, short stories, and novel but instead I've been watching YouTube and reading WEBTOONs. I have no self-discipline without a strict professor and a due date to keep … Continue reading Timing Inspiration: When Motivation Strikes at the Wrong Moment
Multifaceted: Why I don’t Mind Having Multiple Personas
Let me be clear from the start: multiple personas does I am not going to make a joke about having "multiple personalities". That is a real psychological disorder and making a joke about it is tasteless, insensitive and stupid. What I am going to say is that I have several "personas", as in different ways … Continue reading Multifaceted: Why I don’t Mind Having Multiple Personas
Too Much Time: What to do with the extra hours
I graduated from Utah Valley University exactly 2 months ago. For the last few years of my life I struggled to jam a full-time job, classes, homework, house keeping, hobbies, family, friends, and sleep into my weekly schedule. Like most college students struggling to make it to graduation I dreamed of a day when I … Continue reading Too Much Time: What to do with the extra hours
Depressive Rut: How Am I Working Through It
I am in a rut. Everything is going fine: I still like my job, I still have great friends, and I even got to spend time with my little brothers who came to Utah for a visit. In fact, everything had been running so smoothly I didn't even notice the depression sneaking in until I … Continue reading Depressive Rut: How Am I Working Through It
Frustrating Dating
I've been single for over a year since my last committed relationship. As I mentioned in a previous post about the single-shaming culture of Utah, I don't mind being single. I enjoy having my time, money, and space to myself. I like going out and meeting new people both casually and on dates. Sometimes, I … Continue reading Frustrating Dating
It Rained
I grew up on the coastal plains of Texas, where hot summer storms made music on our metal roof. I have many memories of sitting on our large front deck watching sheets of water fall front the sky, flooding the spongey ground with large puddles of water, and filling the air with that sweet smell that … Continue reading It Rained
Single Stigma
Being single in Utah is an unofficial sin. Anyone who has ever lived, or tried to date as an adult in Utah will know exactly what I'm talking about. Once you are 18 you are expected to be looking for your life-partner. The sooner you are hitched, the better. By the time you are in … Continue reading Single Stigma
Things Are Going Well, So Why Aren’t I Happy?
I know I'm not the only person who's been in this position, and maybe you are reading this because you're here too. Basically, I am doing great; I finished school, have settled into a job I enjoy, I have a beautiful place to live, and wonderful friends. I have every reason to be happy- but … Continue reading Things Are Going Well, So Why Aren’t I Happy?
