I Cried Tonight

I cried tonight

The first time since we broke us

The first tears since the last time

That we failed to break the curse that keeps us apart.

I cried tonight.

The first time since I gave up.

The first ache since I allowed numbness

To replace sharp despair over how close we were.

I cried tonight.

I cried over you, and me.

I cried over all the dreams

I allowed myself to believe might come to be.

I cried tonight.

I told myself I didn’t care.

I told myself it was for the best.

I told myself it was time to move on from our impossible love.

We’ve tried and failed so many times it shouldn’t hurt anymore.

But still, I cried tonight.