Anxious Expectations: Afraid of Wanting Too Much

I've always been afraid of wanting too much. I became convinced that if I told myself I don't want it (whatever "it" is), it wouldn't hurt when it was denied. I never believed it was "all or nothing". Rather, I believed that it was "small or nothing". I became content with scraps of affection, moments … Continue reading Anxious Expectations: Afraid of Wanting Too Much

Releasing Who I Was: crying for who I was, am, and could be

Sometimes, out of no where, I want to cry. Not because I'm sad or because anything is wrong. Not because I'm so happy that I'm overcome, but just because it feels like something is building up inside and needs to be released. In those moments, which occur in calm moments, the tears don't come. Though … Continue reading Releasing Who I Was: crying for who I was, am, and could be

Writing Buzz: Living the Writing Life

I'm a connoisseur of coffee shops. I've issues myself a challenge to write at a new coffee shop every week until I've tried every single cafe in the valley. If I attempted this challenge 10 years ago, I would be done in a month. But, Coffee has become surprisingly popular in this Mormon stronghold. Now, … Continue reading Writing Buzz: Living the Writing Life