The Time In Between

Most of my views come at 4:00am on Mondays. This makes perfect sense to me, because I too lay awake so deep into the night that the sky starts to lighten with the approaching dawn. Those hours, after the calendar date changes at midnight but before the sunrises exists outside of time. This is doubly … Continue reading The Time In Between →

Boring Isn’t Bad: a defense of boring.

A friend of mine told me that she thinks she is boring. I was confused when she made this confession to me. She's smart, funny, adventurous, well-traveled, and can really hold her known in any conversation. How could she think she was boring. When I asked for clarification she told me; "I don't have all … Continue reading Boring Isn’t Bad: a defense of boring. →

Anxious Expectations: Afraid of Wanting Too Much

I've always been afraid of wanting too much. I became convinced that if I told myself I don't want it (whatever "it" is), it wouldn't hurt when it was denied. I never believed it was "all or nothing". Rather, I believed that it was "small or nothing". I became content with scraps of affection, moments … Continue reading Anxious Expectations: Afraid of Wanting Too Much →

Winter Wonderland: Cold December

This December has been one of the coldest of my life. I've been in Utah for 14 years, but as Utah has been in a drought for just as long. My first winter in the Rockies was filled with ice and snow, but each consecutive year the snow came later and later. Many years we … Continue reading Winter Wonderland: Cold December →

Learning to Love Winter

I have never been a fan of the cold. Growing up in Southeast Texas, cold wasn't something I encountered very often. The few occasions when the thermometer dropped below freezing were rare and therefore exciting. The fantasy of building snowmen or having a "white Christmas" were just that, fantasies. Until I moved to Utah and … Continue reading Learning to Love Winter →

Releasing Who I Was: crying for who I was, am, and could be

Sometimes, out of no where, I want to cry. Not because I'm sad or because anything is wrong. Not because I'm so happy that I'm overcome, but just because it feels like something is building up inside and needs to be released. In those moments, which occur in calm moments, the tears don't come. Though … Continue reading Releasing Who I Was: crying for who I was, am, and could be →

Skipping Past the Good Part

I saw a post on pintrest the other day that talked living for the future. The post was copied from Twitter and read: "I feel like I’m constantly worrying about the next part of my life without realizing that I’m right in the middle of what I used to look forward to." It's been making … Continue reading Skipping Past the Good Part →

Writing Buzz: Living the Writing Life

I'm a connoisseur of coffee shops. I've issues myself a challenge to write at a new coffee shop every week until I've tried every single cafe in the valley. If I attempted this challenge 10 years ago, I would be done in a month. But, Coffee has become surprisingly popular in this Mormon stronghold. Now, … Continue reading Writing Buzz: Living the Writing Life →

Edith: The Coming of Age WebToon for your mid-20s

Ever read something that resonated with you so much that you wish you could erase the whole thing from your mind so you can experience it for the first time again? That's how I feel about the webcomic Edith by SwanGarden. Maybe I just found it at the right time of my life to relate … Continue reading Edith: The Coming of Age WebToon for your mid-20s →

What’s In the Past

I remember my past like scenes in a movie. As if it all happened to someone else, in a different reality, separate from the one I currently reside in. I say "I" and "me" when recounting the sordid tales, but feels like a lie. Despite all evidence and witnesses that confirm their truth, I cannot … Continue reading What’s In the Past →